I think I’m fine but

I tear up when asked how I am

I tear up when asked how work is

I do smile when asked how he is

But I tear up when someone touches my back
My shoulders
My neck

I didn’t think I would have much of a break this year because, 2020

But I did

And I tried not to think about life, work, and the state of the world

Because I spent the year doing that, like all of us

So I focused on drinking wine, eating bread and swimming in the cold sea

But it kept coming back in painful waves

The idea of reality

While existing, and satisfying, it’s so exhausting

And I realised

I need to focus on what matters

Leave the small stuff aside

The unnecessary worries

Leave those with their masks under their noses alone

And keep a smile for those who care

I feel so burned, yet did so little

How can it be?

I need to focus on what matters

It’s the only thing I’ve learned in 2020

That, and the correct hand washing duration (two Happy Birthdays)

Energy is not an endless supply

Neither ours nor the world’s

So while I allow myself a break

I hope I spend it better next