I think I’m fine but
I tear up when asked how I am
I tear up when asked how work is
I do smile when asked how he is
But I tear up when someone touches my back
My shoulders
My neck
I didn’t think I would have much of a break this year because, 2020
But I did
And I tried not to think about life, work, and the state of the world
Because I spent the year doing that, like all of us
So I focused on drinking wine, eating bread and swimming in the cold sea
But it kept coming back in painful waves
The idea of reality
While existing, and satisfying, it’s so exhausting
And I realised
I need to focus on what matters
Leave the small stuff aside
The unnecessary worries
Leave those with their masks under their noses alone
And keep a smile for those who care
I feel so burned, yet did so little
How can it be?
I need to focus on what matters
It’s the only thing I’ve learned in 2020
That, and the correct hand washing duration (two Happy Birthdays)
Energy is not an endless supply
Neither ours nor the world’s
So while I allow myself a break
I hope I spend it better next